Hey. Dear I wish you weren't going through this chaos you are. I can't properly word currently how much you don't deserve it. All I'll add more is that when you say not going to take it anymore, it is time to embrace a different emotion (because being sad here and there isn't wrong.), maybe one you can make joy with. Think of how you've shared you strengthened your friendships? And have a wonderful holiday with your family, the ones who love you and you love them.
We are your friends, you can confide in us. We are here for you for this reason, to lean onto when you get down. Here for your greatest days, to calm your hottest tempers, to bring you up when you are down. Its all a part of the job as your friends.